Sunday, November 15, 2009

been a while

It's been a while so I posted a few of my favorite pics taken over the last month or two. Have you ever seen a cuter monkey?
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Thursday, September 17, 2009


Finally got around to taking pics of Ammon today. Enjoy!
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Friday, September 11, 2009

Introducing Ammon Cotton Gould

I totally felt hard core when my water broke while camping in Strawberry. Thankfully we made it home in time and the delivery couldn't have gone better!
Ammon Cotton Gould
September 7 2009
7 lb 11 oz
20 in
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Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


"Listen to me, young lady, you are in big trouble!" - The first words out of Sydney's mouth when she came home from Kindergarten to find the huge mess that Alexis (4) made in their bedroom today.
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Monday, May 18, 2009


Happy 8 yr Anniversary to Dan and Molly!
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Monday, May 4, 2009

Nick Mason funeral information

Wednesday: Visitation 6-8 pm
Visitation at Bunker's Mortuary
Bunker Family Funerals & Cremation
33 North Centennial Way
Mesa, AZ 85201
Thursday: Funeral
10 a.m. visitation
11 a.m. funeral services
1455 N Harris Dr
Mesa, AZ 85203-3828
Graveside Service
The Mesa Cemeterylocated at 1212 North Center Street, on the west side of Center Street, between Brown Road and McKellips Road.
Luncheon for friends and family afterwards at the church

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Introducing Princess Lulu

Isn't she adorable?
Dan let me get her today under one condition: Give him the rights to name the baby "Cotton". I previously told Dan that we'll name our boy "cotton" when hell freezes over. But today I was way too excited about getting a new little piglet and probably wasn't thinking clearly so Dan used that to his advantage to get the name he's wanted forever.
She is 5 weeks old and is so delightful. She has warmed up to the whole family. She will crawl into your lap, cuddle, and fall asleep just like a puppy except she doesn't shed, doesn't bark, doesn't lick you, doesn't smell, etc. She seems to already be potty trained too. I am so in love with my new little baby.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Happy Birthday Sydney!

Breakfast in bed

A Sassy cake for a Sassy 6 yr old

Party at Chuck-E-Cheese

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Monday, April 13, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's a BOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am jumping out of my seat I'm soooo excited! 2 girls. 2 boys. It can't get any better than that! Some of you are probably scratching your heads right now. Yes, I'm pregnant. Again. No, it was not planned (who in their right mind would plan to have their babies 16 months apart?) . I am happy though. I had my first doc appt today- I'm not even 14 wks yet and they were able to tell the sex! YAY! The due date is Sept 18th.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

My Sleeping Disorder

Sleep paralysis. It's been on my mind lately and I guess I'm using my blog as a way to get my thoughts out. I think everyone experiences sleep paralysis at least once in their lifetime. I have been experiencing this since I turned 18. I hate it. After the first time it happened to me, I was afraid of sleeping for months (It was years later that I realized other people might experience the same thing and I could do research to find out more about it). If I had to sum it up in 2 words I would call it sheer terror. I will explain what I generally experience during an episode of sleep paralysis.

It's usually just before I fall asleep I feel what I would describe as a pulse through my brain, It's almost electrical and it's very rhythmic. At this point I know that I am going to have an "episode" and there is no way I can stop it. Even if I get out of bed, walk around, get a drink of water, as soon as I go back to bed, sleep paralysis will take over for the rest of the night. The whooshing through my head seems to come first and then everything else happens all at once. Every time without fail I feel like dark shadows are closing in around me. I am frozen stiff. I have the greatest sense of terror, fear and dread you could possibly imagine. I can not move a muscle and as hard as I try, I can not scream out for help. There is often pressure in my brain and my ears so intense that I fear my head is going to explode or my ear drums are going to burst. I always have auditory hallucinations. Some times it is chattering in my ear or shrill screaming or just the loudest white noise you can imagine. Sometimes I feel like someone is pulling me or lifting me off the bed. I definitely always feel like there is a presence in the room. I feel very heavy, like there is pressure all around me. I feel so vulnerable and exposed. I always feel like this dark presence is trying to take me. The worst part is suffering through this when I know Dan is within 2 inches of me and is completely oblivious to the hell I'm experiencing. No matter how hard I try to move my hand one inch to nudge him or yell out to him it is in vain. Now understand, I am wide awake while all this is happening to me. It's not a dream. Unlike a dream, you do not have the ability to "snap out of it" or tell yourself to "wake up". I just have to ride it out. It can last for a long time. When it's over and I can move around, get up, get a drink of water etc. I know that if I try to go back to bed and try to go back to sleep it will most likely happen again and again the rest of the night. It's not as bad as it used to be - it actually rarely happens these days. I've had it happen only twice in the last 3 months. It used to be several times a month. It was the worst within the first couple years I was married (from age19-21) It would happen so frequently that I could actually predict before going to bed that it would happen to me because of the way my mind and body felt. If I stayed up later than usual, it was almost guaranteed to happen. When I finally got on the Internet and researched it, I learned a few things. Such as, sleeping on your back increases your chances of experiencing sleep paralysis. I never sleep on my back now and I know that really helps. I'm thankful it's not as bad as it used to be and that I'm not afraid to sleep anymore. Although, I am weary of going to bed tonight since it happened to me just last night.

An explanation in my own words: When you dream, your brain keeps your body from moving to protect yourself from physically acting out your dreams. Sleep paralysis is basically a malfunction of this process because you are wide awake when your brain is paralyzing your body. With sleep paralysis, you are wide awake, aware of your surroundings but your body is completely paralyzed. I don't understand the feelings of terror and darkness and I don't think there really is a good explanation for it either. Most everyone that experiences sleep paralysis says that it is a terrifying experience- Some are much worse than mine as they actually see figures or demons around them- whereas I don't exactly see them, I just sense their presence. Now I don't think writing this was helpful at all - I'm just really freaked out right now. You probably are too. Sorry...Goodnight?

Do any of you experience this? And if you want to know more about it- just google it.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

No Returns

Apparently, when your baby is in the 0 percentile for weight and the 1 percentile for height, you can't take them back to the hospital. I guess that's ok, he's pretty cute. But why is it that my girls got the tall gene?
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Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Scorpion Hunt

Dan took us on a scorpion hunt in his parent's back yard for Family Home Evening last night. We had a black light and found a ton of scorpions but only caught 3. I was the lucky one to hold the jar while Dan used tweezers to put the scorpions inside. EEEEEK! I was so freaked out.
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Alex's weekend

Alex learned how to ride her bike on two wheels and then she had a bug Birthday party. It was the funnest party. Check out that lady bug cake! Have you ever seen a more adorable cake? Thanks Mandy! Check out her website:
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